Morrrooooooo

Every so often, when I feel an internal struggle and I'm confused about my true feelings because i'm trying to put on a face to others, and I want to know how I really feel, I look deep within myself and picture my 'inner child'. Sometimes it's just standing there, it's mouth wide open, screaming a long AAARGH!! Other times its sitting melancholy in the corner of my mind, sighing pitifully. On occasion, it just stands there, a faint smile on it's face.
Now it's currently doing a little tap dance, a smile on it's face and it's arms flailing in rhythm, singing, dada du daa dadada du da daaaa and ending the dance with 'jazz hands' and a big cheesy smile on it's face and muttering a breathy 'yeeeaaaahhh!'.

I get the impression, it's possibly suggesting I'm feeling a bit pleased with how things are going so far this year.

Last year had such a turmoil of emotions (break ups, new starts and so forth), half the time I felt many things were going wrong and I was constantly ****ed off and very wound up and unfortunately I entered the 'dear god it's all happening to me!!' stage on several occasions. December came and dear god I could not wait for the year to be over.
As soon as January started, I felt sooo much better. Things suddenly seemed to go my way, I was finally able to take the bull by the horns and sort myself out. It was brilliant. Of course the damper has been getting two colds in the space of two months, but eh...whatcha gona do.

This could either have been pure coicidence; a good year making up for a bit of a crap ending last year, or I managed to work it myself with thoughtful boosts of 'clean year, clean start'.
I still stand by the whole 'there isn't really bad luck, just the idea of it' and if a person catches themselves early on they can prevent themselves having a bad day. I did once. Could have been worse but I prevented it through psychology, watching everything I said and stepping carefully so I wouldn't make a fool out of myself and feel terrible the rest of the day (worked a charm!)

I think I'm also feeling this chirpy as it's the first time I've slept properly in so damned long. Sure I woke at 4 this morning as usual, but at least I'm not watching the clock avidly now waiting for 5 to come as usual.

I've figured to key to me being happy is sleep well, exercise and giving myself things to look forward to. Helps get through the monotony of 9-5 every...sodding...day.

Well...it's all good :)

Note: random title due to could be arsed to think of something better and pretty much sums up my attitude today